So, I totally full of ideas and plans this morning. I am free again. My mind is not locked up in all of the BS that I have had it locked up in. I am free to think, to plan, to dream, to sheme! Mostly, to feel. That is the best part. I feel so alive again. Kinda like I did I stopped taking Melatonin everyday. That was keeping me in a zombified state, and this drama of the past few months, this hiding from myself, those that love me, and the problems that I was having is over. No, facing some issues is not easy, it hurts, I cry on my grrrls shoulder a lot I have noticed. That is ok, she likes it. Well, I dont know if "like" it is the right thing to say, but she is strong, and she is there for me. No, you know what, she does like, because it helps me grow...I can hear her now telling me that she does like it when I cry on her shoulder, infront of her, to her, near her. Whatever. The other night she held me while I had a mild breakdown over 28 year old issues. Its both funny, and NOT AT ALL, how those scars from childhood can mess you up.
Wow, that was strange...I could swear my Dad just knocked on the counter 2 feet away from me...That is truly eerie...Especially since the 28 year old hurts are from my parents, and he is, after all, one f my parents! Haha!
Anyhow, bottom line is that my crafting supplies are going to get used a lot more now, and the kids and my grrrl and I are going to have WAY more craft nights... Get ready baby! Its almost Thanksgiving again ( kinda ) time to bust out the construction paper to make paper turkeys! Remember those? We did that last year, that was fun, except that the grown up got way more into it than the kids! haha! Well, Halloween is closer, so I guess it will be ghosties and ghoulies first!
Haha, I have that silly ELO song stuck in my head.... I'm alive...
Sing it with me baby!
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