So, I had a "breakdown" moment this weekend. Some stuff that I didn't realize was festering, was festering. So, when I realized it was bugging me, I wasn't around my Grrrl to talk to her about it, so I wrote a note in my iPod. Then, when I got home, I didn't want to ruin our evening. I guess that I figured that I would talk to her when the time seemed right. Well, the time didn't seem right until a different, but somewhat related subject came up. So, instead of talking about it, I broke down, and got crazy ( not as bad as normal ) but it wasn't good.
I would like to add, in my defense, that, the delicate subject matter that was being "discussed" when I had my "moment" might have made my "incident"worse. I was embarrassed by my vulnerability at that moment...Not wanting to look stupid in that sort of moment. That, is another epiphany that I just had.
Another thing that happened tonight, when my Grrrl mentioned that she wasn't going to get around to doing something, I guess I sounded more bothered by it than even I realized I was. So, she texted me and said it would get done. I know that she has other things to do tonight, so I should understand, but this is something that had been left over from last night, basically. And, for a split second what went through my head was "Well, you didn't get to it today, and you re not going to get to it tonight, what have you been doing all day?" Fair or not, that is what I thought. I know she is probably doing stuff tonight, laundry, and I know that she did the kitchen laundry today, partially. Anyhow, I am glad that she is doing the kitchen, I dislike coming home to a dirty kitchen, and I am glad that she is taking care of this for me, and the family!
OK, well that is all, I just spent my first break blogging this, and I still didn't my coke! UGH!
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