Wednesday October 19th, 2011

I got my flu shot today. Arm doesn't hurt as bad as it could, so yay for that!

Cara still wants to go live with her dad. I know that I should not take it personally, but I do. She told me last night 'if you don't want me to go, tell me" I didn't tell her, I should have... Then, My Grrrl told me that Cara had given me the chance. I missed it. We argued, because I am hurt and knew I blew it. I went in and told Cara that I don't want her to go, but if she needs to, I support her. I think that she heard me, and feels like My Grrrl had to tell me to go tell her...Ugh. I don't want her to go, I am afraid of many things, one, that she will be hurt by her father like everyone else, second, that he won't pay to send her back this summer, I will pay of it I have to. Third, that she will like it better there and not want to come back at all. Also, and less on the emotional worries, that he will take forever to get her into school, like he did with Marie... Marie came back from it, Cara might not, she is challenged in school as it is. She is doing so good this year, and I don't want her to back slide and I should have told her more. I have taken her for granted. She has not been the squeaky wheel, alas... All I can do is learn from it and do better by them all.

We, as in me and My Grrrl are staying downstairs more, but last night, everyone had finished their hours early and we were both so tired, that we went up stairs early... Not tonight, even though I am so tired I could crash right here right now!

This weekend will be no rest either. Cleaning the shed, setting up for Halloween, going to the library, Nana's and Cara's therapy. One night, Robert is having a friend spend the night, Saturday afternoon, he will be going with Jerry, his big. Sunday is hiking with my sister and Her Man. And I, I have a possible lunch thing for work with the new providers and My Boss... That might be fun, especially since My Boss has GREAT taste, and the tab would be picked up by the hospital!

Lots of patient surveys today, and I am getting to a finishing point with a project! Just the last bit is the hardest for me, and the kids are no help! LOL Might have to ask My Grrl for assistance!

Well, back to it I must get!

Misty