Last day of November! Tomorrow is December. Thank you captain obvious! I am so excited! 22 days until we leave for Denver. Mixed feelings about that. Excited to see family, nervous for any drama that may occur. Nonetheless, that is family, right? Maybe not for all, but it is for us...
Last night My Grrrl was not in a good place, and I have to admit that it hurt my feelings, but I tried hard not to take it personally, because I know that it is not. Then this morning, around 6:00am, she asked if she could hold me. That made my heart sing, and it made me feel so good. I didn't realize how late,or early, depending on your point of view... I only had about 20 more minutes to sleep, but that was the best, "longest" sleep ever. It is, I believe, the reason that I am not beat today!
I hope that we have a good night tonight. I want so much for her to feel good, but I can't make her, and I have to realize that when she doesn't, it doesn't mean that I am a failure, even though I sometimes feel like it does. I can't make her happy, is my reasoning, so I am not a good wife. I don't know... I do know this, I am not giving up on her, on us, on me!
Well, I have ten million things to get done, and I need to leave early to get my kiddos their flu shots... Oh joy! An afternoon out of the office, but doing errands! I'd rather be working! LOL
Misty
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