Sorry about Friday...

I didn't blog yesterday, I think. Busy, and tiring day! Culminated in
bad news from a friend, and I don't know how to handle it.

Now, after a solid nights sleep, I finally got to give blood! Liked
the guy My Grrrl got. Liked the girl that started me. Not real sure
about the lady who is gonna finish me...

Lots going on today. This, then prepping for Prom, then my daughters
Prom. Tomorrow, I plant in my new garden!

Almost done here...maybe more later!

A hunch is creativity trying to tell you something
- Frank Capra

Ham...

Does not like me as much as I like it... That is all.

Thursday April 28th, 2011

So, today is going to be an early day, I am not feeling well, going to be going home early and bed right after that.

On the bus this morning I decided that I am going to do my best to be in the craft fair here at work in, I think like November. I am going to start working on crochet purses, etc. Maybe I can get My Grrrl to paint some more rocks. Those always go over great! Maybe some other stuff too.

Anyhow, I have decided that Thursday will be "Craft Fair Update Day". This way, maybe I can hold myself accountable to myself and actually do it!

Well, that is all, please excuse the Ham post. I sent it last night from my phone on the bus, and it was having a hard time sending, so now it just keeps trying. I have deleted 15 of the same post! I keep trying to make it go away, but to no avail.

That is all. I am going home now and to bed soon there after!

Ham...

Does not like me as much as I like it... That is all.

Wednesday April 27th, 2011

Longest day of my life! UGH! And, to top it off, I did not have time to blog. I mean, here I am, blogging, but I did not have time to do anything worthy.

Today is Garden Day. My garden is almost ready to plant in! I am so excited! This weekend, wind permitting, I am going to plant the babies that I have started!!! I am so excited, so is My Grrrl! I am going to have her paint a sign for the garden area. I am so excited! It is hard to be excited when I am so tired, but there will be hot dogs and brauts on the grill when I get home, that is so awesome!!!

I have been getting into the new show Dexter. My brother in law turned me on to it. It is pretty good. I am really enjoying it!

I also love ham... Just for what it is... I love ham. I fried some up this morning before work, and I am eating some right now, cold... YUM! What the heck. Random thoughts! I love Dexter, I love ham, I love gardening, and I love My Grrrl!

I would also LOVE this day to be over!!!! 1/2 an hour and it will be over! At least THIS phase!

That is all out there in blog land... Time to close out the day. Oh yeah, it is Administrative Assistants Day, formerly known as secretaries day, and my boss is new, and she did not get me anything. I will let it go. I don't hold it against her, just more stuff to carry on the bus.But still, I think that I will get something for myself and put her name on it! Haha. I think that I am going to try to figure out someway to ask her if she will let me order myself an iPad! Hehe, it's worth a try, right!?!? ;) Wish me luck!

Tuesday April 26th, 2011... RE-PURPOSE OR DIE DAY!

So, first, I want to talk about something cool that my mom did on Easter. She brought the kids gifts, and she wrapped them in the paper towels that she has used to dry her colored eggs on. They came out on the neatest polka-dot kinda pattern. They bled into the paper towels very nicely. So, that is my Re-Purpose or Die item for this week. At least a personal one. I mean, I didn't do, it, but I saw it, and I'm totally stealing it, so...

As for something else I want to add. Mini Plant Hanging. I think that I added this correctly. I saw this on my Facebook page. I am a fa of Ready Made magazine. I really do love it, I get the paper subscription with my coke points.

Anyhow, this kind of thing is what I am talking about. Using what you have around, that you might throw away anyhow, to do something cool with. That is what our "Hippie House" is all about too...

BTW, thanks to my awesome Grrrl, who tiled the stairwell landing yesterday, amid personal drama no less! ;)  Yet another one of the millions of reasons that I love her. And it looks great! I wanted it done before our oldest daughters graduation party, and she did it! Da Da Da Daaaa!

OK, well, I better go now, before I get Re-Purposed into a jobless person... Breaks over!

Monday April 25th, 2011

Quiet weekend, not sure if I blogged yesterday? We mostly hung out around the house, because of  various maladies. MY Grrrl got into an "argument" with the girlfriend. The girlfriend is acting like a 5 year old... Anyhow, my Mom came by with Easter goodies. OH MAN. I just realized that I left my candy at home! Oh that stinks!

Anyhow, I am at work, LONG days this week, so I can have Friday off for the Royal Wedding. Even though it comes on at 0100 our time, we will watch it in bed, and have tea and snacks, and even though I probably COULD make it in a few hours that day, I'm not going to. I might have to do some hours on Saturday, but, there is weekend diff if I do that, so it's OK.


Today is Foto Fun day here, so here are some photos from the last week. Enjoy!

I took this one from my back patio. I used the tripod I have to grip the top of the gazebo. Wonderful!

This one was taken on my roof at sunset.

I love the way the sky is pink in these ones!

This one reminds me of Independence Day, the movie, when the space ships start appearing...

Same with this one.

Crazy Colors!

Yep

Uh huh

Same sky, a few minutes later...

This is my favorite of the set. I love the sunsets from my roof, but there is always a power line in the way, unless I get up on the top roof, and I am to scared to do that alone. This particular time, I think that my Grrrl must have been downstairs, or busy or something.

No blog today

No blog today, been a long day. Up early, went to urgent care with my
Grrrl. Grocery shopping, something else I think, home to rest, then to
Nanas. Home to rest, took a nap for a while, watching a Rush
documentary. Took middle to dinner with her Beau, went back to store,
ugh! Came home, fed kids WAY late! Now, I'm about to learn how to turn
off the furnance. Done. Now off to watch a movie, The King's Speech.
The oldest has a boy over, pretty cute.

On a different note, today is the 23rd, and I had decided to make the
23rd of each month a letter to my father who passed in 2006. I had a
million questions that I wanted to ask him, but today they pretty much
escaped me. And today being so long and tiring, I didn't to it. It
really is an excuse, I should have done it, it will be hard whenever I
do it, but I just didn't do it today. I think I will write some as
they come to me and publish them on the 23rd. Less pressure this way,
maybe I'll actually do it?!

That is all, goodnight!

Friday April 22, 2011

HAPPY EARTH DAY!!!!

Was up too late last night, and I am so tired today! Not even really tired, I am just bored. How sad is that.  Th work in my yard is going along well, from what I hear, oh what I wouldn't give to be there now! Alas, I will be there in about 2 and a half hours! Tonight, the kids are going to my mother in laws and my Grrrl and I are gonna go grocery shopping, that is date night for us. Kinda sad, but in the same right, it is not sad at all, because we find quality time in the time that we have together.

We watched Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Krystal Skull. Awesome movie on it's own. We were playing 6 degree to Harry Potter, a new game we invented. W were trying SO HARD to get there, and on the screen pops the guy who play Slughorn! OMG! I am yelled...

HE WAS IN HARRY POTTER!!!!

Then my Grrrl remembered that Olivander is in the movie too! Too Funny!

Yep, we're nerds!

WEll, back to it now, I got a new App for my iPod and I am playing with it, but it is being difficult.... UGH!

April 21st, 2011, Much Better Today...

So, I guess I do know what it was that turned out to be wrong with me yesterday, but it really feels insulting to me and I would imagine my entire gender to say it was just PMS. But, alas, that is what it was... Kinda.

I mistook things that were said yesterday, and I wouldn't listen to anyone, and I didn't even listen to my good angel, I just followed the roads that made me maddest. Why in the hell would I do that?

My Grrrl, who puts up with so much, once again, put up with me. We were better by the time that we were together again.

I have to work on how I act. At one point I was standing outside myself and I saw how ugly I was being, but there was nothing that I could do about it. Maybe that is the first step? Admitting that I have a problem? Cuz I do, and the biggest part of that problem is that I take it out on those that I love, who deserve my best. Why are we like that, I know that it is not just me, in this world, that does that. Treat strangers and such better than we treat the ones we love, and the ones that love us, the very ones who deserve our best, not our worst, but they put up with it and love us anyway. It is not fair...

I am going to work on that, I am also going to live in the shed during PMS... for the safety of those around me...

No More FML

Talked to My Grrrl. Call it PMS, or as she said, something about the moon, blah blah blah... We are better now. I am still hurty, more than just my head now, but I will be on a bus in 40 minutes and on my way home to My Grrrl, for some preplanned cuddle time... It does, after all, take a while for water to boil for spaghetti... hehe!

Re-Purpose Or Die

Glass Bottle that had lemonade in it. MY Grrrl re purposed it to be an incense burner. She drilled a hole for the smoke to escape at the bottom, and attached a keyring by braided string to hold the incense in the bottle. Works very well, and it looks VERY cool when it is filled with smoke!

Blurry, but there is the hole for the smoke to escape.

Here's The Problem

I had time to think while I was walking doing errands. Here is how it goes...


My Grrrl says something about the girlfriend that hurts my feelings ( Such as inferring that we can't have fire time without her....)


It hurts my feelings, and I try, but not very well, to hide it, and she knows it. Then, because I am hurt, and upset that she likes the girlfriend WAY THE FUCK more than she admits, and that scares THE HELL out of me, everything bothers me. Today was a giant cluster fu*k, because my Grrrl already has issues today, s my issues because of what she said, didn't help...


That is what I figured out while I was walking the halls. I have also decided that my "letting it go" trick, ISN'T WORKING, and MY HEAD STILL HURTS!

So, I still stand by my previous FML!

April 20th, Garden Day

Here are pics of the greenhouse from this morning...

Corn babies, or is that Peas?

THAT is corn...

That is corn, started in toilet paper tubes. Can't remember where I saw that idea, but thank you whoever it was. I'm thinking it was Martha Stewart Living, as seen when we were at the Urgent Care with my oldest, or Ready Made, which makes more sense to me.

THOSE are peas!

Peas, and Vianne's seed in a yogurt cup...?

FML 4/20/11

My head is killing me, and everyone is mad at me. Can't seem to get anything done and I am dreading the rest of the day, and the evening. Running around chasing my tail, and oh, did I mention, everyone is mad at me. I have to much on my plate, I think that I am getting sick, I can't fix the problems of the people that I love, everyone is mad at me, and I just want to go to sleep.


My head is killing me, I am not looking forward to going home tonight, because even if this current "issue" gets fixed, I know there will be tension. Everyone is mad at me, and I feel like it is my fault. Why can't I make people understand what it is that I am trying to say? Why can't I make them see what it is that is hurting me.


My head is killing me, I now have a tension back, arm and neck ache. I hate talking on the phone and NOT SAYING ANYTHING. I can't be on the phone that damn long for no good reason, only to make things worse. That is why my neck hurts.


I have personal issues from something that happened over the weekend, and I am not getting any better. That worries me some. My head is killing me, my favorite app is crashing after an update. I have a meeting with the BIG boss at three, for which I feel I am totally unprepared and I will be dealing with someone that is very difficult, I know that this will bring much more work to my desk, work that is NOT NEEDED.


My head is killing me, and everyone is mad at me. It is hard to not take things personal when they are coming at me. I know that people say that they are not aimed at me, but when I hear that disdain in a voice, and when I can see the venom in the eyes...it is hard not to take it personal, Others can do it, great for them, I cannot. It is even harder to swallow that it is not aimed at me, when I just said got irritated at something that that someone said...Oh I don't know how to say it. It is just hard.


MY HEAD IS KILLING ME....


I am wallowing now, I know that I am. Everything that I write makes me think of something else that I can be upset about. I can be upset about, or I can just let it all go, and get over it. Ill try it they'll try.
I don't want to feel like this. I hate this. I don't have a permanent solution, but I can solve it for now. Letting it go, even if I am lying to myself about that...


Today was supposed to be Garden Day...I have corn and pea babies in my greenhouse thingy. I will post pictures later.

Tuesday April 19th, 2011

Want to do a theme for each day, right? Well, today is re-purpose day. I don't at this moment have anything that I have re-purposed to show you. There are many things, I just don't have anything to show you right now. As I type, my mind is running wild with the things that I want to take pictures of that we have done around the house, or at least tell you about, but my mind is running so wild, that I cannot even get any out... Breath....Breath...Breath... OK, there is one that I can think of...

When my Grrrl and I first got together, we took and old dresser I had and cut off the top ( without the drawers in it ) and used that for the TV stand, and put the DVD player under that. That, by itself, is a genius idea, no? Then, to make things even better, we took the rest of the dresser, and wrapped it in twine and carpet and made it into a scratching post for our cats. We eventually had 5 cats at one time. Now, we have one. However, we do not have that particular piece of art anymore. I am going to call each re-purposed thing a piece of art, because they are.

So, I must go soon, tons to do today, I just want include the link to my new Facebook group about re-purposing. Well, I guess I can't include the link? I tried, but I think that just takes you to my page. Either way, just search Re-Purpose Or Die on Facebook, and that should take you there, I am planning in the days ahead to invite everyone I have found on all of the neglected re-purposing type pages to join mine, and together we can try again and what they and others had tried to do.  I think that I can be emailed about the group at  Milsty@groups.facebook.com . ha ha, there you go, we are off and running!

të gjitha krijimet e mia më të mira janë nga aksident  (Albanian)

P.S. Man, thank heaven for spell check!

Photo Monday 4/18/11

Birdie Hangin Out!

Lilac Bush

Grapes!

Grapes!

Grapes

Periwinkle! Gorgeous!

Crazy Bug!!!

Trying to fly away!!!

Birdie Birdie Lookin At Me!

Birdie Birdie Flyin Away From Me!

Best ever shot that I have gotten of the moon! Thanks to my tripod, and the sunset setting, I believe it was the sunset setting. This is the view out the window at the top of my stairs! Gorgeous!

This week was fun, back at work today. Today is Photo Monday. That is my new Theme Day on The Blog.

Ta gach mo bunu fearr ag accidenr ( All my best creations are by accident in Irish! )

April 17th, 2011

Just a day, nothig to exciting. Got up, got ready, did some chores.
Took the swamp cooler to my oven of an office. Went to see my Nana,
came home, did some yard work, now, my Grrrl and I are relaxing
watching Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. Beautiful day, windows
open, gonna grill tonight!

Should be a great night too, early to bed, payroll & a new boss
tomorrow.

Nothing cuter than a Chinese girl with an Irish accent! I love Harry
Potter!

That's all for today.

All my best creations are by accident. Could that be why the things I
TRY to do usually don't turn out so well?! ;)

A hunch is creativity trying to tell you something
- Frank Capra

Today is a MUCH better day. April 16th, 2011

7 years ago today my Grrrl and I made a commitment to each other to
always be together, and always be there for each other, and, and,
and...to be honest I don't remember the vows we made to each other,
other thanthowe of any married couple. And we did it on the kitchen
floor of the family's cabin. It was beautiful. I still love and
cherish and appreceiate her, and just plain ole adore her...

So, yesterday, was a PMS day, for sure. Between that and to little
sleep, and my hot office, and all the excuses I could make, it was a
bad day. My Grrrl came to my office after our sons appt. and convinced
to me to go home and rest. So, I knocked off a few hours early and we
came home. We watched Harry Potter 7.1 ( and the Deathly Hallows ).
Our girlfriend tried to get out of coming over, and there was some
back and forth with her and my Grrrl. My Grrrl told me that alour
anniversary would not be ruined ( she is right so far ) and that I
should not be worried about things. It was a good talk, turned out to
be a good night.

Right now, we had started a Harry Potter Marathon, after a bit of yard
work, my grapes , i mean the vineyard is looking really good so far. I
fell asleep during the first Harry Potter and my girl came out to her
car to fix her speakers. Now I'm awake, I joined her, and got some
great pics of the birds that live in our carport! I will upload them
later. Maybe include. Them in a blog next week. I think that I will
make each weekday a certain theme. Like Monday can be pictures. I try
to get outside each night to take a few pics, name em Foto Fun
whatever date...one day can be devotes to things we have or want to
repurpose. Well, I'll work on it this weekend. That can be this
weekends Mental Mission!

That is all for now, gonna go be with my family, oogle my wife, get
some grub for grillin' and enjoy our anniversary. Maybe we should
write new vows? <3

All my best creations are by accident.

Cool Sign Off... April 15th, 2011

So I sat down last and tried to think of a good sign off for my blog. I have come up with one, and I will end this blog with the the sign off and then I will try and blog again later. Today, thus far has been poop. Fighting with my Grrrl, I don't feel well, I feel like I am going to be sick, and therefore I am not looking forward to tonight, or the weekend at all for that matter. Worried that my anniversary is going to go badly. Irritated that someone I don't even like as much as people think that I do, is getting to me because she didn't text me yesterday. That this person is up before the sun to get in the first good morning to my Grrrl, but I don't hear form here until 9:00am.

Lack of sleep, and a stomach "bug" or something... I just wanna cry, I want to take it easy today, I have been up since 5:00am, and I wanted to take today easy, but that won't happen, now I have all of these projects on my desk, and I just wanna cry. Things are not OK. I just want a nap...

I just want to be alone.
I just want to be cooled off.
I just want to feel 100% again.
I just want to have 1 or 2 things on my plate.
I just want to relax.
I just want to sleep.
I just want to watch Harry Potter.
I just want to be happy.
I just need a nap.
I just want to be in my comfy jammies.
I just want to be excited about this weekend, but all I feel is that a jealous hissy fit is going to erupt from me soon.
I just want my 11 year old not to argue with everything that I say.
I just want my 17 year old to never roll her eyes at me again.
I just want my 15 year old to not  NEED that guys attention so badly that she will allow herself to be treated like crap.
I just want my Grrrl to get out of the dark place that I fear that she is going. She is snapping at the kids and at other things, more and more. What more can I do to make her happy? I have gone along with things that she has wanted. I have tried things that she wanted to try. I have done everything that I can think of, and all I do is make things worse for her, and for me.
Why can't I just be happy.
Why can't I just go with the flow.
Why do I let people get to me?
Why do I care if the person that I don't even care about that much doesn't text or call me first.
Why do I care if she calls my Grrrl all the time?
Why do I care that when I tell me Grrrl I wanna have the Harry Potter marathon downstairs with the kids, she is going to be irritated. Maybe she won't actually be, but she will come across that way.
Why can't I just take her at her word, and not at her actions? Because actions speak louder than words, that is why.
Why do I get upset deep in my heart when she talks about the other girl so much.
Why does it hurt my soul when she talks about loving us both?
Why do I allow it?
This was not supposed to be about loving someone else was it?
This was supposed to be about experimentation.
Why is there such a double standard?
I can't do this anymore right now.
Pity Parties never end well... So mine is over.
However, I know when my Grrrl reads this, she will come to me and try to make it better, which is great, but I know when she offers to stop the "other" part of our relationship with our girlfriend, she will do it begrudgingly, and with much pain in her heart. That is not OK. There should be no pain in her heart to lose the other person. That is not normal, and that hurts that it will be there.

Al mijn beste creaties worden door accidenr.  (That is my sign off... )

Busy Thursday April 14th

Been busy, little things, here and there, to busy to write done much of what is going on in my head. Got lots of little things done, paperwork, personal paperwork that is. And of course, work paperwork too. I glued some "potential projects" in my new "inspiration book". OR I glue magazine clippings of "things that I want to do, but will never get around to actually doing" in my "old journal"...

There is a cute little dress in there made from a mans dress shirt. I have seen variations on this, but I would really like to try it. I have a lot on my plate this weekend, but maybe that will be one of the things that I actually get done! Who knows. This weekend is my anniversary. 7 years! Holy cow! Best 7 years of my life. :) We will celebrate by watching all of the Harry Potters, yeah, we're nerds!

I have a killer headache right now, and I am super tired! I have a busy day ahead of me tomorrow too. Have to take the kiddo to the doctor from that accident on the 4th, and who knows how long that will take, plus I have to go to work, and get a lot of last minute things done before my new boss takes over on Monday!

Tonight, I think that there will be much laying around, and much going to be early! That is what I see in the future!

I finished another pair of slippers today! They are not perfect and there are something that I just cant do the same from slipper to slipper, and I dont even know how I am doing them different! Anyhow, they are comfy! I won't give them as gifts until I get them to be the same from pair to pair, heck from slipper to slipper, which may mean never! But, my kiddos will like em, and my girlfriend likes her pair, and I love mine. Not sure how my Grrrl will feel about them, she prefers nekked feet anyhow! :)

Well, the man child will be here soon, and the day is drawing to a close. Time to close up shop and head to the homefront where the wife and kids are waiting... haha! I just wanna see my Grrrl and give her a hug, and NOT touch her sunburn!

Gotta find a cool sign off for this... that is tonights mental mission... ohhh, that is a new one too... Mental Mission. When I have something that I need to plan or think about, but not actually do yet... I think that I am going to like Mental Missions. Heck, I am putting that as a subsection in my iPod calendar right now!

All of my best creations are by accident...

April 13th, 0700

I had a minor breakdown last night, not really a breakdown, as much as
a hissy fit. I know why I THINK it happened, because my Grrrl answered
the phone while we were outside and I was taking pictures. I just
wanted undivided attention, but there was more to it. I can't remember
now and that bugs me! So, when I have these hissy fits, I'm gonna blog
right away. Maybe that way I'll be able to find my "root". Hahaha!

More later

A hunch is creativity trying to tell you something
- Frank Capra

April 12th, 2011

Today I am tired, so very tired. I am afraid that I am getting sick, and boy, how I do NOT want that for me. This weekend is my anniversary. We have been married, for better and for worse for 7 years on Saturday. We have had better and we have had worse, and now that have been through both, we are working for better all the time. That, is the "Why I love my Grrrl" reason for today.



I am putting up some pics that I took this weekend, I think it was this weekend, if not this weekend, then it was last week sometime. Either way, it has not been more than 10 days...

 I love the leaves.

As they are opening up to the world.

So pretty.

:)

Can't wait to get the grapes!

  Maybe make some more "fu*k it" wine.

Not that we drink!

But, it is fun to watch, and see it create itself!

I love my Vineyard.

Monday April 11th...

It's Monday again. The day started off pretty good. I got a fridge in my office! Woohoo! I rearranged some stuff in said office. I made more room on real shelves, just my thing! The landscaper came by the house today, perfect timing, I had just looked up some flowers that I wanted to see if I could get in there! My Grrrl was awesome and passed it along, since I could not be at the meeting. Now, I am done with a ton of billing, finally, and I am about to do some surveys, not my favorite thing, ugh! I can't breath, well I can breath, I am not turning blue, but... I am stuffy beyond comfort.

Our girlfriend is supposed to come by and get some stuff for school taken care of. I hope that she hurries, I don't want to be late today. My mom is going to drive me and the man-child home today. She has some things for us. That is nice, but I must admit that I am dreading telling her about the xeriscaping opportunity. I fear that she won't take it well, and think it is some personal attack on her. I appreciate her help with all of the things that she helps us with, but I dislike her irrational feelings that everything is a personal attack on her.

Anyhow, time to go do surveys.

Sorry, that today's blog is not so exciting, I am beat!

Oh, what I love about my Grrrl today. Let's see... She's all kinds of cute! She is getting better about letting me help her. And our 7 year anniversary is coming up soon. I am very excited. I think that we are going to buy Harry Potter & The Deathly Hallows part 1 on DVD Friday, and spend the weekend watching all of them, to prepare for the last one coming out in July. We will go out to dinner that night I think too... It will upset the girlfriend I am sure, that she can't come over that night, that is our night to get together. I just talked to my Grrrl, we will invite the girlfriend over Friday night, and maybe Wednesday too.

So, back to work...

Sunday April 10th

Busy day! We had company last night. She left this morning at like
11:00, then my girl and I went out front and played in the yard. She
did the hard work, weeding the mint area, and I planted morning
glories by the carport area, and then started corn and peas, and
replanted a houseplant, and a piece of my grape vine that came off,
and all kinds of fun stuff. We had a talk about our girlfriend, and
her drama, and it was good to talk, I like talkin my my Grrrl now.
Then, she was sunburt, and were worn out, so in for a shower, and
aloe! I worked on my water recapture project, and she rested. We maybe able to get help xeriscape the yards, cool. However, the more I think about it, the more I wonder if that
means I will loose my places to grow stuff, and my water recapture
project? Oh well, it would be nice to have it all done and pretty. A
deck out our side room would be nice too ;)!

Saturday April 9th

Today was a busy day, as usual. I woke, got ready, took the kids to
see Nana, then I went to work for a while, trying to make up the time
I missed on Wed. when we were at the Urgent Care ALL day!
Took the middle kiddo to a softball game she had to work, she is in
sports med at school.
Came home, getting ready to go out again, when my mom in law came by
with 3 of our neices. I got hugs, it was awesome. She brought us a
rug, more awesome. They left, we went grocery shopping.

Went to get the girlfriend, went to get the
Kiddos from softba, picked up her friend, came home, I farmed, yes,
I'm addicted to farmville on facebook, but I can stop anytime I want to!

We ordered dinner, ate, then came up to our room and watched the other
guys, too funny! Love that movie!

Now, I have locked myself in the bathroom to blog, the kids are
watching the movie, my Grrrl and our girlfriend are joking around, I
think there may be a junk food run in the future! I can't breath
because of the crazy wind. There was so much I wanted to do this
weekend, but today the wind, tomorrow it is supposed to rain. I wantto
waychthe Kennedys miniseries I recorded. My middle kiddo wants to have
a Taken marathon, also a good suggestion. I need, want to hem some
pants, and start some seeds. I saw somewhere that you can start them
in toliet paper rolls, then just plant that whole thing. Too cool, and
I have been saving the rolls for a different project, whcih can
wait...I guess I better go, what will be will be, hem or not, I have
work clothes, plant or not, there is next weekend, but I will try very
hard to watch something on TV for MOST of the day...and crochet.

Oh, I ws not able to give blood, that is why I was up sp early. And I
had a thought this morning..I was internally dialoggong...
Why MUST I always be doing something else when I might have downtime
( like giving blood)
Is it because I don't wanna be alone with my thoughts? Are they dark
and scary?
No, because he only thoughts that I would be having are new things I
wanna craft, or plant, or try...
That is all, I better go, before they think I fell in or something!
Haha, sorry, potty humor!

A hunch is creativity trying to tell you something
- Frank Capra

StarDate -31119.5 ( Friday April 8th )

Well, it has been a crappy week, as far as peoples moods. Everyone has issues this week, and all I can say is that I am glad that the week is over. This weekend is designated for relaxation and rest, and peace and calm, and quiet, and rehabilitation.


I am going to give blood Saturday morning, if my iron levels are high enough. I have been taking iron pills. If they are not high enough this time, I give up!


This weekend, I want to build a trellis for my morning glories to grow up. I want to plant them somewhere new as well. I saw this thing in Martha Stewart magazine when we were at Urgent Care for 600 hours on Wednesday. I got lots of neat ideas from that magazine! Woohoo.


However, this weekend is designated for R&R. However, those things are fun for me, so... We will see. It might depend on the weather too, which is supposed to be crappy... UGH. Not cold enough to hide in bed under the covers, but in bed just the same, or on the couch, or in my recliner, crocheting... watching a movie marathon... Sounds good!


That is all for now. Oh, what do I love about my Grrrl today? That happier moods MUST prevail!

Thursday

Well, one day closer to Friday! A strange day to be sure. A big project on my desk. Challenging, but I like it that way. I am so tired, this week has kicked my butt. My office is so hot, and when I talk on my cell, I sweat all over it. I dislike that... A LOT. My Grrrl is worried that something is wrong with me, there is nothing, but if she is reading signs from me, then maybe I am putting off a vibe without even noticing? The only thing that is bothering me is that it is so hot, and I am so sweaty, ugh, and I want to be outside where it is pretty right now, but this weekend, when I can be outside, it will not be... HOW UNFAIR! Today was rainy here in the morning, I would have loved to be in bed watching movies, with the window open so I can hear the rain on the carport, with my special Grrrl right next to me... I miss the cabin. maybe we can go soon. That would be awesome! I just texted my best Grrrl about that. We always have such expectations about going there, and something usually brings us down, kids being bored, not wanting to hike, whatever. This time we ARE going to have fun, if if effin kills us!!! She just texted back. SHE'S ON BOARD!!!

OK, well, I better get back to it. Break is over!

No Post Wednesday

This has been and still is the longest week ever! Yesterday I tried to get an appointment for my oldest due to the car accident, but there was nothing for like 2 weeks, so I had to take her to Urgent Care. Didn't think that it would be that bad, or take that long! Holy Cow! We got there at like 11:45, didn't leave until 5:00! Nothings broken, they thought her collar bone might have a hairline fracture, but nope. The PA that we saw said that we might need to make a follow up with her regular doc if she is not feeling better by Monday or so. We'll see. I hope that she gets better. It amazes me how fragile the human body is! I mean, we can do all kinds of amazing things, but the seemingly littlest things knock us on our butt! Our girlfriend is is so much pain right now, she can't move her neck, and she has missed 2 days of school, I hope that she makes it today. She needs to go to school become a nurse, making lots of money, and take care of us! ha ha! ;)

So, what do I love about my Grrrl, from yesterday. Again, it is her willingness to go that extra mile for me. She thinks that they are little things that she does, but coming with me to the Urgent Care yesterday was very nice of her. Especially since I know how she feels about hospitals, sick people, waiting rooms, and the public in general! She always makes my life easier. Last night, we had to go see my Nana in the hospital, she was so down, that even after the long day we had she was a priority! My Grrrl got me and the kids out the door, and took care of our ( sometimes difficult ) girlfriend, and then she had dinner cooking when we got home. I bet if I had not taken the freeway ( and driven to fast ) it would have been plated when we walked in the door!

My middle child is feeling neglected, and who can blame her, she is right about middle child syndrome. I need to work on paying her more attention. It is hard, however, when she is as moody as she is. Man, I have to say, based on my experiences thus far, 15 IS the HARDEST age to be a mother of! I love my kids, but she is driving me bonkers!

My oldest is fine, and my son is moody as well. What a great life, no? I think that my early days are getting to him. He gets up at 6:30, and since I have been doing that schedule, he has been more moody. He was moody before, but he is MORE moody now. It could be the age, or the fact that he is the only male in the house, or the phase of the moon. Then again, it could be the messed up week we have had. NO normalcy to this week whatsoever! I need to work on that too. Tonight, my middle kiddo has a baseball game to work, so that throws some normalcy out the window, but we can make it a whole lot better than it has been. The rest of this week, and next, I am going to strive to make the nights normal. We all need it.

Well, that is all I think. Time to get my nose to the grindstone...

Tuesday...

So, yesterday my daughters got into an accident with our girlfriend. Scary. I left work, a bit early, and the boy and I were gonna walk, but my Grrrl met us on the walk on the way home, she brought my youngest daughter. So, I got home, changed super fast, grabbed a bite to eat, I think? We went to the shoppette and got drinks for everyone and headed to the scene.

The ambulance was there, checked everyone out and everyone is fine. My youngest daughter complained of pain, but there was all kinds of issues. We had to get the car towed to our girlfriends house, get her kid, some clothes. We brought her home to our house, she was to shaken up to be at home last night. My kids had to ride the city bus home, and walk from the stop because my Grrrls car is so small, and my van is out of commission.

I took my daughter to Urgent Care. She was in all kinds of pain. We were there from 7pm until 930. The Dr. gave her muscle relaxers and told her to take ibuprofen. We came home, and I had to have my Grrrl tell our girlfriend that she was gonna have to sleep on the couch, because I needed my sleep, and when we have slumber parties, no one really sleeps, and I have no room! I don't think that she took it very well, but upon talking about her since then, she was just bummed about the situation, etc. No car, trying to go to school, etc.

Anyhow, now I am at lunch, my daughters have the day off, so that is good, my achy one can sleep. My Grrrl is gonna take our girlfriend to the Urgent Care soon, and I am going to finish the day, and go home a bit late. My son and I are gonna catch the bus at a different stop today. Trying out a new thing. Seeing if we catch it one stop before the busy one, if we can get a better seat, or a seat at all for that matter!

The girlfriend is gonna order pizza for dinner, and my oldest is making a cake. I am not sure if she wants to spend the night again, but it will be a crazy, yet yummy night.

So, for today, what I love about my Grrrl... Yesterday she was on the ball at every turn. She rushed to the kids at the accident sight. She rushed home to make sure that the boy and I could get in the house ( I didn't have my keys!)  And she got us all back to the kids. She took care of everything, including the drama of the girlfriend, and the kids and me, and everything. She is my rock! Always has been. I can look back now, on like 10 million things that she has done to be my rock! I love my rock!

Monday Yucky Monday

What a day. Didn't want to get up. Son is grumpy, didn't get enough sleep or maybe it is the weather? It was FREEZING and breezy on our walk to the bus. At least we were in the sun at the stop. He grumbled all the way to the stop, can't say that I blame him much, I was grumbling at the cold in my head. I should have brought a hat, and that was on my mind, then it was, well if I had brought a hat, it would have just messed up my hair, vicious cycle in my head!

The weekend was nice, we cooked out, yummy food. Our girlfriend came over and we had a slumber party. Not much slumber, to crowded, watched movies, etc. The weekend was busy and I didn't get to see my Nana at the rehab hospital, there were issues with her phone, and we were told not to show up without calling, so I didn't go. When I finally did get a hold of her, she sounded very down, but at that point it was to late to get there before visiting hours were over.

Now, it's Monday and the girls don't have school today or tomorrow and I know that the 15 year old will complain about being bored all day, and she is stalking her ex, and I don't know what to tell her about being bored, other than, you are 15, and have a room full of cool stuff, figure it out. Plus I had some tasks for her, but she didn't want to do them, so there you go. They are gonna be miserable today, because my Grrrl has to do laundry and with the issues in our house, the TV has to be unplugged for that to happen. Hope that gets fixed soon.

Well, I guess I better stop complaining. It doesn't do any good, plus it is payroll Monday, so I better get on it.

Ever get hit with a wave or tired? Well that is where I am right now. There are so many things that I want to do, that I feel I need to do, but my Grrrl is right, the world won't end if they don't get done right away. I think that I am getting sick again, and I really don't want that for me. But at least I would have something to blame my tired on?

OK, well, now that that is off my chest, time to get crackin'. I may post again later, depending on how the day goes!

Yeah, Time Warp on the iPod... That'll get me going!

Saturday, April 2nd

It's a beautiful day! My middle kid had a baseball game to work, took
her, went to work. Came home, tried to take a nap, no dice! Just
things, life, stuff. Actually, I dis get a cat nap. I have a headache,
but life goes on! Oldest going to a movie with a new Beau. Youngest
having a friend over. Middle will probably complain about being bored.
Ugh! Were grilling, having the girlfriend over! Movies, cuddling,
firetime, laughing! What a night to look forward to! But for now, we
have to go to the store to get supplies!

What I like about my Grrrl today...she loves me mostest...and she
tells me all the time!

Oh yeah, there is a blue in the New Mexico sky that is ONLY in the New
Mexico sky! I could put up a cot in the courtyard and just lay there
in bliss all day! To bad tomorrow is going to be to windy!

A hunch is creativity trying to tell you something
- Frank Capra

Periwinkle

Yesterday I saw my first 3 periwinkle flowers on the vine!
 Yeah!

Another day in Paradise

IT'S FRIDAY!!!! It is also April Fools Day! Our friend got me good. Not gonna go into it more than that, but she got me good...

So, today is the first day of 30 that I am going to write some stuff that I love about my Grrrl. Today it is communication. She has been talking to me WAY more lately. That is awesome. Not just chit-chat, but serious "stuff". She and I have conversations. We have things to discuss, and we do it. She is making an effort to talk to me, and to listen, and that is great. We are doing great. She is worried today about "stuff" and we talked about it and we are trying to get through it. I hope that I  helped. I hope that she will be OK. If she has issues, I will do my best to help her, and be there for her.

Today also starts the positive thinking. I have been trying. I am working on it.