Ahhh, Fu*&k, We Made Mold...

So, the container that we used this time to store the grapes in. Turns out that it is NOT as air tight as the other one that we used, that worked. So, I looked at the grapes today, and, Houston, we have mold... Bummer! Heather noticed it before I did, since I was asleep all day. Again, I say, BUMMER! That was our last harvest of the fall.


Considering that this was only our second attempt, and the first attempt, was indeed an accident...I guess it's  big deal. It is a bummer, but it sucks that we can do it again for a year! We WILL do it again though, for sure!!!

We'll be doing lots of "stuff" like that... Just this past weekend, we covered a blank wall in our room with fabric scraps, it looks AMAZING! Ill post a pic of that too!

So, bummer for the wine/mold, but yeah for our creativity! Let it flow baby!

Good weekend

Had a good weekend. Lots of family time. 2 "feasts". Got some chores
done. Got an awesome project in our room done! Quality time with my
best grrrl. Finish up by laying out under the stars together in the
courtyard... Some tough subjects covered, worries shared, scary
emotions out on the table...overall good stuff. Oh yeah, I
rediscovered my nappin Heather, greatest thing ever. This week holds
new challenges, but just like everyday since our new start, we are up
for them, facing them head on. No one can stop us if we want it, and
we do...

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Goals for myself

1. Learn to stand up to my family about my life decisions.

2. Learn to say what I mean... everytime, everything that I mean.

3. Learn that appeasing others by telling them what I think that they want to hear, is, in the end, a bad way to go about things.

4. Learn that it is MY life, and the things that I CHOOSE to do and say, and think, and the people that I choose to love and spend my time, and life with, are up to me in the end...

5. It is my life, I must live it, no one else has to face my "judgement" in whatever form it may or may not come in the end...

feeling good

Running around like a chicken with my head cut off here at work. But I feel good. Tummy hurt last night, something was funny with the burgers at dinner. But I feel good. The guy on the city bus in front of me was kinda stinky. But I feel good.

I feel good because things are looking up everyday with my grrrl. Everytime we talk, we're stronger. Everything that we do, makes us better.

Looking up, feeling better, trying hard. Looking forward to the future, whatever it may hold.

:) Things are good! Stayin on the right path! Trying hard!

Tired today

I know that I have not been doing my self discovery work much this
week. The few things that I did come up, just popped intony head, so
that was easy. I know I like fairies? That was listed as a to do in my
list...just fairies? What, exactly was ulibthinking I should do about
that? Maybe look at pics for the house or something? Who knows...

I know I don't want to go to therapy. But I don't really know why? I
mean, is it because if Roberta, or is it because I am afraid of what I
will be told? I'm not trying hard enough, I'm not being fair, were not
good for each other? I could have told you that. Sometimes we are not
god for each other, but we are working in being good for each other do
we really need help for that?

I'm still disappointed in myself for Thursday night, but what can be
done bow other than to learn from it?

I have a headache, shouldve listened to Heather, and taken an asprin
last night, but I didn't wake up with this headache, it just came on.

One more thing, about the bathroom idea for the move, i understand the
idea, and the reasoning, I agree with it, it's just going to be a pain
in the butt for all involved...

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new goal for me

I know its not New Years, and I know it is a tiny thing, compared to some of the things that I have to work on ( not letting my mother get to me... ) But... my new current goal, is to write 1 thank-you note a week. Just for whatever, something small or something big, like that. That reminds me, I need to write my birthday Thank Yous...

1st entry

Yesterday morning, I figured out that I actually like fairies. This sort of things has been an issue for me, not fairies, but figuring out if I like something because I like it, or if it is because someone that I care about does, and I have made myself like it, to please them?

Anyhow, yesterday, when I was moving a poster of fairies to the kitchen from the hall, I decided that I do indeed like them because I like them. My grrrl likes them too, that is great, something we actually have in common. But more importantly, I like them.

Well, that is all for this morning, I am tired, and that was just kind of a test to see if this blog works, and I can get my grrrl following it!