So, I guess I do know what it was that turned out to be wrong with me yesterday, but it really feels insulting to me and I would imagine my entire gender to say it was just PMS. But, alas, that is what it was... Kinda.
I mistook things that were said yesterday, and I wouldn't listen to anyone, and I didn't even listen to my good angel, I just followed the roads that made me maddest. Why in the hell would I do that?
My Grrrl, who puts up with so much, once again, put up with me. We were better by the time that we were together again.
I have to work on how I act. At one point I was standing outside myself and I saw how ugly I was being, but there was nothing that I could do about it. Maybe that is the first step? Admitting that I have a problem? Cuz I do, and the biggest part of that problem is that I take it out on those that I love, who deserve my best. Why are we like that, I know that it is not just me, in this world, that does that. Treat strangers and such better than we treat the ones we love, and the ones that love us, the very ones who deserve our best, not our worst, but they put up with it and love us anyway. It is not fair...
I am going to work on that, I am also going to live in the shed during PMS... for the safety of those around me...
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