FML 4/20/11

My head is killing me, and everyone is mad at me. Can't seem to get anything done and I am dreading the rest of the day, and the evening. Running around chasing my tail, and oh, did I mention, everyone is mad at me. I have to much on my plate, I think that I am getting sick, I can't fix the problems of the people that I love, everyone is mad at me, and I just want to go to sleep.


My head is killing me, I am not looking forward to going home tonight, because even if this current "issue" gets fixed, I know there will be tension. Everyone is mad at me, and I feel like it is my fault. Why can't I make people understand what it is that I am trying to say? Why can't I make them see what it is that is hurting me.


My head is killing me, I now have a tension back, arm and neck ache. I hate talking on the phone and NOT SAYING ANYTHING. I can't be on the phone that damn long for no good reason, only to make things worse. That is why my neck hurts.


I have personal issues from something that happened over the weekend, and I am not getting any better. That worries me some. My head is killing me, my favorite app is crashing after an update. I have a meeting with the BIG boss at three, for which I feel I am totally unprepared and I will be dealing with someone that is very difficult, I know that this will bring much more work to my desk, work that is NOT NEEDED.


My head is killing me, and everyone is mad at me. It is hard to not take things personal when they are coming at me. I know that people say that they are not aimed at me, but when I hear that disdain in a voice, and when I can see the venom in the eyes...it is hard not to take it personal, Others can do it, great for them, I cannot. It is even harder to swallow that it is not aimed at me, when I just said got irritated at something that that someone said...Oh I don't know how to say it. It is just hard.


MY HEAD IS KILLING ME....


I am wallowing now, I know that I am. Everything that I write makes me think of something else that I can be upset about. I can be upset about, or I can just let it all go, and get over it. Ill try it they'll try.
I don't want to feel like this. I hate this. I don't have a permanent solution, but I can solve it for now. Letting it go, even if I am lying to myself about that...


Today was supposed to be Garden Day...I have corn and pea babies in my greenhouse thingy. I will post pictures later.