No blog yesterday, not much of one today. I feel like doody. Not sure if it is just allergies, man I hope not, because if it is, I won't feel better for MONTHS... I don't look forward to that. I am thinking it is a cold, because Cara was like this last weekend, and she seems to be over it. Plus Robert was sick last weekend too, so...there is hope!
I feel like I am in a fog the last few days, more than that though, I have felt somewhat like that in the last few weeks. I feel like, at work at least, that I have spent more time cleaning up after my own mistakes, than just doing my work. Usually I clean up others mistakes...I dont like that, but I like that more than cleaning up my own, because that means I am making lost of mistakes, and that is how I feel lately.
I need a vacation, not just from work, but from the kids. As soon as My Grrrl and I head out to go to Target, or what have you, those USED to be considered "dates" for us, and we were OK with that, but now, as soon as we leave, someone, usually Cara, texts with something that I need to take care of. We can't even get to the main street first... Grrr. I know that I should turn off my phone when we go, and if there is a REAL emergency, they can text My Grrrl. They won't play games with her... I just want to go away for a few days with My Grrrl, but that presents so many issues. Who will take care of the kids. Can't have my mom stay at the house, Marie cannot stand her, and the others are on the fence, but if we send the two younger kids to, say My Grrrls mom, then Marie is technically "old enough" to stay home alone, so then we have to wonder what she will be up to! Grrr! Spring break is coming up, I am looking forward to that, but then again, not so much. I want to get some much stuff done, in my opinion, fun stuff, but then again, I worry that I will be so tired, or maybe it is borderline depressed, that I will not want to get out of bed the whole week, and then I will be ignoring the kids again, and that just makes the cycle of feeling down worse...
When My Grrrl goes to Denver again, I think that I may take "sick day" when the kids are at school, and just stay in bed, or not stay in bed... Just have a ME day. I wish that I could have an US day... I need an US day. I mean, we do get to do stuff, we have done a lot of stuff these past few days, but with NO CHILDREN INTERRUPTION!
Anyhow, my meds have kicked in, and I have some energy and direction to get some stuff done, so I better take advantage of that, and get some stuff done!
Blessed Be!
Misty
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