I’m So Over This Night….

 

I'm so over tonight, at work. It started out crappy. Well, not really, I mean, I was in a bad mood about my job since Thursday night. My supervisor is kind of a pain in my butt. And, as I previously blogged, I am tired of all of the extra little duties that I have.  I'm tired of getting ragged on for doing the extra things, not to her specifications. Look, I'm doing stuff that makes your life easier, and technically are your job. I get them done, and they are done correctly, just not like you would do it, but correctly, so back off. Don't praise me for being so ready to take the lead, and then bitch about how I do it!  Plus, my favorite nurse is not here, and my LEAST favorite one is…She has been a super bit*h all night, and riding me for mistakes that were made on day shift. Maybe I should have caught the mistake in question, but here's the deal, if day shift did things the way that they are supposed to, then that mistake would have been easier to catch. In the end, the double checking and catching of those types of mistakes, fall to the nurse, so good job, you caught something that was YOUR job to catch. What are they going to do when all the HUCs are gone?  Poor babies…

 

Let's see what else. Oh, we got a patient, and within an hour and 15 minutes he died. I stood there and watched his wife beg the nurses to stop doing compressions, saying that they were going to break his ribs. The entire family there, crying. It was terrible. I could barely stop myself from crying. I know that it is OK, and I am allowed to cry. Well, to be honest, I don't know if I am allowed here? I mean at this unit? At the PICU, they expressed that it was normal. Anyhow, I walked away once I knew that they didn't need me. They don't need me… That sucks. So, he died, and that was hard to watch. Then, we got another patient, and she coded twice within an hour of arriving, then one other patient died, I didn't even know about it, she was DNR, and she just slipped away…

 

My eyes are itchy. It is 5:19. That is good, but 7:19 would be better! I am really lovin this 2 on and then, well, last week I only did 1 on, 2 off and 2 days. So, I guess I am not really sure if I'm gonna love it or not. Ask me again on Saturday! I think that I will like it!

 

This weekend we have an awesome project we are going to do, as long as my mom gives me those books we discussed, and I can figure out one last aspect of it… For more details, read my other blog.

 

For now, I think that I had more to bit*h about, but I lost it. That is an OK thing to loose I guess. Not like a lock combination or something important. That is why I like blogging, for 1 thing I can get "it" off my chest before I take it home, but my grrrl can still read it and know what is eating at me, if that is the case.

 

I guess that is it for now, I better get back to work. My eyes are killing me, which sucks…