What a weekend...

It started when we took the man child to his Halloween Spook Out. He was Mario from the video game, and we were Danny and Sandy from Grease. I was Danny! It was a riot and the best part was that the matching costume idea was all my grrrls! I have wanted to do it before, but that is not her thing. This time, she stepped outside of her comfort zone, and we had fun! She was beautiful! I was so proud to have her by my side!

Saturday was lots of running around. Groceries, Library, her Moms. Then that night we talked, and some sensitive subjects came up. It kinda put a damper on things that night, but they needed to come up, and this particular topic was an issue that she had. It needed to be said, she needed to get it out, so she did, and that was good. It wasn't easy for me to hear, it sucked, but it was true. I think that that is the part that sucks the most, is that it was true, it touched to close to home for me.

This morning, she was afraid that things would sill be strained, but they weren't. I woke up ( at 3:15pm ) as in love with her and happy to start a day where she is my wife, as ever...

Difficult things are going to come up, on both ends of this. This weekend, I realized that I hurt by all of this. Her part of it I mean. I didn't know what was going on until after the fact, but now that I know. I am hurt and pissed. That is OK. I am allowed to be. She is, but I feel like I don't have the right to be. We both committed the same offence, for different reasons ( both of which suck by the way... ). But she knew what I was doing while I it was going on. I found out afterwards, and while hers happened first, I didn't find out until after mine came out. So, I don't feel like I have the right to be mad about hers, even though it happened first, because I feel guilty for mine. I cant get my words out well...

Bottom line is, we both did something stupid, we both learned from it, ( I think ) and we will never take each other for granted again. We will never put ourselves and our relationship for granted again. Never put ourselves in a place to let things get so danmmed out of hand that we loose ourselves and each other.

We are running hand in hand toward the future. Hand in hand so we cant loose each other...